Love letter to Mental Health
Dear Mental Health,
Over the years I have got to understand how you function and why you work the way you do. For years I was of the belief that you had total control over me and that I had to think the thoughts that came into my head.
I have realised that I have between 50-60,000 thoughts in any given day. With a new sense of conscious awareness I have learned that certain thoughts I choose to dwell on cause me to feel stressed, fearful and anxious.
These patterns of thinking started very early in my childhood. Over time they formed beliefs and as a result continue to play out as a programme.
To be aware of this is mind blowing. As now, I realise that this is a subconscious programme that is on re-play. Due to this awareness I now realise that each day with my choice of thoughts I can re programme myself and tomorrow a new way of thinking and feeling will begin to unfold.
I used to believe you when you said, “You are not enough, you will never be like them, you don’t deserve to be happy, people don’t like you”.
Over time I have realised that thinking this way is not helpful and actually isn’t the truth.
With this understanding I began to say different things to myself about myself like “I am a kind person, I deserve to be happy, the people that matter to me care about me, I am unique”.
With this new way of thinking I began to have better days and began to have feelings such as hopefulness, excitement and optimism. This is a total revelation. For years I saw you as the enemy. I was convinced that you and the world were against me. But I now realise that I choose what I think and am aware of how it makes me feel. This is a fact, if I do not like the way I think or feel. I have the power to think a better thought and choose to feel different about it.
You Mental Health are my friend and my feelings are an indicator of whether I am in or out of internal alignment.
I am no longer disconnected to my inner world, but am totally connected and feel empowered, passionate, enthusiastic and full of freedom.
I have now come to the realisation that what I think has an affect on how I feel on the inside which has a big impact on how I act on the outside. So I now take responsibility for my internal reality and as a result I can have a happy, positive, approachable personality.
I have learned that when I let my light shine, I automatically give others the permission to do the same.